disconnection

I've been feeling quite disconnected from everything faith related lately. It seems as though I always feel too 'tired' to do anything. It's not an excuse of any kind, and I really want to feel the connection more, I just don't know how. I could try to get more involved in the online events at the House, but it's hard to coordinate times most days to be able to join in the chats. I should just be going over to the boards and talking to people, asking questions, but I'm never sure what to ask, where to start even. Perhaps I should give the prayer book and the beginners lessons a really good read. I think I just feel like I don't know enough, like I'm not completely part of the house, most likely because I don't know anyone in person, and I'm rather shy about meeing anyone to be honest. I feel like I'll fall short of expectations, even though it's likely there wouldn't be any expectations. Who knows, Netjer help me I will connect myself more.

Senebty.