I've been struggling a lot lately with everyday problems. I haven't been praying as much as I could be and I'm feeling the withdrawl from Netjer, it's not a good feeling. It's like a good kick in the butt to say, hey you need to pray about your problems, you need help, you can't do everything yourself. I'm just finding life difficult at the moment for no particular reason, I need a job, I'm bored a lot of the time, I've been sick, I've gained weight, Tim's grandfather just passed away so we had to fly out to Terrace on short notice, just a build up of stuff. I can't ever seem to get the house clean, and I just want to be out doing something other than sitting in the house. I don't know many people here, those that I do know are busy with other things or they're older family members who work all day and such. Here I am feeling sorry for myself again, and nothing really bad has happened, I just feel like crap all the time and I'm sick of it. I need to make changes, starting with my prayer, I need to start praying more, talking to Netjer, to the Names. I want to start doing Senut, but I need to get my physical space organized before I feel like I can do that. Eventually I do want have my RPD done, but it won't be soon. Netjer willing I will get that job I'm interviewing for tomorrow. I just have to tell myself that.